I am crazy....

So I have had it in my mind for the last 6 months that I want another child. Well, I don't sleep anyways because my kids don't and I have been through this gig twice, why couldn't I handle it. Well, we had a scare, I was two days late and let me tell you PANIC was running through my veins in those two days. All I could think of is a million things that could go wrong with this baby, I have to eat 100% organic, I can't use anything with chemicals, etc because I am terrified to bring another sweetie into this world and have them suffer like Landon did. Autism does have a genetic link, if I had a boy, he would have a very good chance of being Autistic. Well, today AF arrived and I must say I was crying with joy. It's funny how Mother Nature speaks to you. I love babies and children but I think I will stick to my two wonderful kiddos happily, I am tying them up once and for all so I get no more ideas. So yes, I am indeed the most crazy and indecisive person on earth. Period. That's why you all love me right, ha!